God I need to calm down…five years of being single is turning me into teenage jelly…
That incredible moment when you remember that your crush is now SINGLE and making a big effort to try and see you.
Fuck. Why am I going home tomorrow? I could seriously do with a good flirt…god, I missed the feeling of butterflies in my stomach so much <3
Nothing will probably come of this but it’s just lovely to be attracted to someone and feel like they might fancy you back a bit. Though god seriously….he’s pretty much the dictionary definition of my type.
teawithghosts said: Dude drop me a message whenever you want. I may not be on a phone but I’m here.
Thanks dude. My Mum called and I think I’m a bit calmer now…just going to try and do some painting and calm myself down.
Ezra Miller, Photographed by Javier Ortega
The thing about grades is that I know it will make no difference in the real world and that no one is going to give a shit. What I am more worried about is what it’s going to do to me and my self esteem and if I will be able to pick myself up and dust myself off or not.
I’ve always prided myself on being good at this…I went into this degree with no expectations but then first and second year happened and I built expectations of myself and what level I should be performing at. And it sucks that everything is going to be judged on this one year where everything fell to pieces. I just wish I didn’t do this…fuck everything up when it most matters.
I can’t even explain how happy I was last year…I designed for three projects before even getting out of uni and I was so unbelievably proud of myself and sure that I was going to accomplish everything I had ever dreamed of. But this year has me doubting all of that….and it feels like last year might as well have happened to somebody else.
I don’t know guys…I’m just vomiting this up because I think I need to get it out of my system.
Yes anon that’s what I was referring to :) Or revived at a later date in the future etc. Thank you very much for your rec! xo
Aaaaaand back to worrying about my grade.
No idea where this has come from, it just hit me recently and now all I want to do is cry.
I’ll blame it on my period. Cause that’s probably what it is but I do wish my tutors were more supportive and that I didn’t feel like there might be some crucial piece of information they’re not giving me now that might help me to do better in the end.
Meh. I don’t know what to do. Or actually…what bothers me is that there is nothing I can do. And that’s the worst feeling of all. Powerlessness.
whenever people say they dont like cats because they dont happily greet you at the door i give them the stinkiest eye
Anyone have any good Merthur resurrection fic recs? I have looked on red lists but they seem to be a rare breed of fic so thought I would try my luck in the tags :) Thanks in advance!
man i love this girl. most people that get popular doing something unintentionally embarrassing on the internet either drop off the face of the internet forever or they’re ridiculed so much that they’re pushed off. rebecca wasn’t having none of that shit. she’s grown up quite a bit, she can see why the video was so cringeworthy, and she can still joke about it. four for you, rebecca. you go, rebecca.